that don't warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !
pages
are
the same theme
as
the
death
of
emil
nobel
death
and the inversion
of
effect
between
intention
and result
what
is
omnipotent ?
“all
powerful”
can
one
be
some
things and not others
is
all
powerful
everything ?
must it
be
everything
to be all
powerful ?
is
it itself ?
are there some things which it is not ?
is
it
also
not all powerful ?
what
do
i
mean
by
genius?
is
it
clever
or
the ability
to recognise
our stupidity
probably a bit
of
both
if
you
have
seen
the
extreme
you
have
seen
the extreme
its
not
going
to
be
worse
i
have seen
too
many
extremes
when
dealing
with
twits
and
malevolent
trolls
just
walk
away
and
look
gracious
travellers
please
tell
our
brothers
we
died
for
them
epitath of simondes
intensity
comes
once
though
looked
for
it
cannot
be
repeated
two
contradictions
can
be
true
god
is
not
omnipotent
of
god
sex
is
pain
the
devil
you
know
might
be
better
than
the
devil
you
don't
or
it
might
not
be
;o)
a little thought experiment
an
eskimo
from
100
years
ago
put
in
a
modern
city
and
expect
him
to
adjust
we
all
have
the
same
problem
as
we
get
older
theres
no
answer
because
theres
no
question
men
are
more
diluted
than
women
not
as
intense
a
being
those
that
need
to
weep
weep
women are
basically
ungovernable
except
through
love
of children
and
even
then ..............
on the net
theres
10%
raving
certifiable
lock
up
loonies
80%
deadbeat
stupid
dumbs
9% not
quite
stupid
dumbs
1%
a
bit
better
than
that
women
veracious
vaginas
men
dorky
dicks
yes
mr. men
&
little
miss
you
can't
change
the
weather
the
weather
can
change
you
everything
has
a
raw
edge
it
is
always
falling
apart
it
is
painful to
be
a
genius
in
a
world
of
jackasses
do
not
fret
time
waiteth
for
every
man
i
think
women
feel
life
more
keenly
than
men
but
in
an
unconcious
or
unreflecting
way
couples
need
to
be
a
bit
in
awe
of
each
other
for it
to work
and
if
not
in awe
at least appreciative
of the skills
of
the other
in
order
for
it
to work
“all
that
I
have
written
seems
like
straw
to
me”
thomas aquinas
yes thomas
it is
all
straw
why did you waste your time
writing
such rubbish?
lies
are
a
part
of
truth
just
as
much
as truth
that
includes
lies
by
omission
untruths
are
not
necessarily
lies
but
lies are
a type
of
untruth
the
truth
is
not
complete
without
lies
and
untruths
some
poems
are
good
for
what
they
don't
say
as
much
as
for
what
they do
say
i
am
changing
i
don't
know
who
i
am
but
i
never
knew
who
i
was
there's
an
intensity
and
power
to
adhd
but
it
doesn't
persist
very long
thats
the
weakness
which
can
be exploited
how
many
non
life's
are
there
in
a life?
if
there
is
such
a thing
as
enlightenment
its
a
bloody
long
time
coming
i
can tell
you
the
thing
about
john
of
the cross
is
he
was
hunted
down
by
the
order
he
founded
makes you think
in
the end
i
don't
think
wisdom
literature
can
be
righter
than
half
right
otherwise
it
would
be
infinity
which
its
not
basically
if
you
try
to unite
philosophy
with
physics
which
is
what
the unified
theory
tries
to
do
you get
into
the
problem
of
the untrue
very
masculine
men
are
not
that
keen
on
women
there
is
no
unified
theory
because
a
unified
theory
cannot
include
itself
n, n+1
lol
they
will
be
looking
forever
that
is
the unified
theory
some
people
agree
with
you
some
people
disagree
with
you
some
people
want
to
kill
you
yeah!
the
whole
point
of watching
a
movie
trailer
on the
net
is
to
innoculate
yourself
against
going
to
see
it
i
don't
know
“avatar”
needed
much innoculating
against
margaret cavendish
“The foure principall Figur'd Atomes make
the foure Elements, as Square, Round,
Long, and Sharpe.”
a precursor
to
string
theory?
trying
to
recover
what
cannot
be
recovered
the luminaries
of
the
catholic
church
are
john
of
the cross
and
teresa of
avila
if
you
think
they
are
thomas
aquinas
and
st augustine
you
are
wrong
catholicism and
schizophrenia
go
hand
in
hand
i
suppose
thats
true of any religion
or
“spiritual”
path
sometimes
i
just
feel
depressed
for
no
reason
except
i feel
depressed
in choosing a lover
women tend towards preferences
and conditioning their choice
its hard to explain
but just because one writes poetry oneself
doesn't make one a good judge of poems
can take me a while to see the light if its there
is
like
a
raging
carnivore
i was thinking of karen's death, some things that only her and i know, like her susceptibility to telephone sales and buying things and services she couldn't afford
or the jeweller who robbed her of valuable jewellery she had valued
or the trouble i went to with copper rods and liquid nitrogen to freeze melanomas
i
am
the
only
person
that
knows
now
what meaning
is there in
this?
none
age
doth
weary
them
it
certainly
wearies
me
from my own working experience working your arse off is a suckers game
and being good people just use you
while kicking you actually
thats
the
problem
with
physics
it
concerns
its
self with
what
is
true
quantum
physics
edges
a
bit
into
what
is untrue
but
it
is
also
concerned
with
what
is true
poor
einstein!
no
wonder it
upset
him
god
not
with
standing
:o)
we
take
true
as
conformance
to
the real
but
thats
the
limitation
of
true
conformance
to
the real
is
the notion
of
true
limited?
YES
roll
on
true
and
untrue
is
partly
fictional
get
it?
another
day
another
death
threat
you
wouldn't
think
people
get
so
upset
over
poetry
i'm
just
expressing
myself
man
its
been
my
uniform
experience
across
the
web
that
if
you
tell
people
something
useful
all
you
get
is
resentment
the
only
protection
is
avoidance
lot
of
what
i
write
is
semi
synthetic
it
doesn't
necessarily
correspond
to
the
real
world
that
well
the
mentally
slow
think
themselves
fast
thats
part
of
being
mentally
slow
the
level
of
open
injury
that
is
normal
to
living
is
so
horrific
that
if
it
was
seen
directly
the
world
would
freeze
the
more
i
see
of
the
net
the
more
i
think
99.99%
are
toads
i
think
life
is
a strong
moving
stream
and
thats
the
problem
everybody
remembers me
because
i
am
the union
of memory
with
infinity
so
why
shouldn't
i
be
remembered?
i
think
constructing
images
is
a fundamental
process
of
being
human
if
we
don't
do
that
there
is
nothing
and
we are
uncomfortable
with that
its
the separation
of
male
and
female
that
is
the
decrement
of
intelligence
this is already
the end time
the world is
dumbing
down
and
its
going
to get
worse
not
better
its
interesting
how
we
normalize
on the
world
we
construct
as
children
and retain this
for
the rest
of
our
life
in
fact it's
all very strange
and
remains
so
you
are
extremely
attention
deficit
when
it
comes
to
what
you
don't
want
to
do
i
think
that
what
is
unusual
about
the
david
bain
trial
where
unequivocally
david
did
the
deed
but
those
who
would
feel
the
loss
of
a
loved
one
keenest
were
dead
in
short
the
one
most
injured
was
the
only
one
left
alive!
the
only
purpose
of
incarcerating
people
is
to
prevent
them
killing
again
and
as
a
deterrent.
in
terms
of
remedy
or
avenging
the
death
of
a
loved
one
it
is
meaningless
and
they
may
as
well
walk
free
lovers
can
be
a
bit
of
a
commodity
to
women
toni
packer
had
an
attempt
on
her
life
i
can't
think
of
any zen
master
who had
except
perhaps
being
fucked
to death
the real
is
not
permitted
to live
lying flat
on
my face
breathing heavily
unable to move
a
sort
of
calm
from
the
pain
paralyzed
by
migraine
except
for
the
pessimism
i
am
basically
optimistic
i
remember
i
then
remember
what
i
forget
god
if
theres
an
afterlife
for
humans
theres
an afterlife
for
ants
theres
no
afterlife
education
is
a
conspiracy
by
the aged
to cripple
the young
before
they
become
dangerous
zen is a fiction
honestly
its just
brain
damage
like
everything else
theres
nothing
like
getting
migraine
for
killing
your
appetite
for
sex
michael
considering your catholic education
and
interest
why
have
you
never looked
at
those
luminaries
of
the catholic
church
john
of
the
cross
or
teresa of avila?
but involve yourself
in that
templar crap?
i'll
tell you
why
because
to understand
those
two
you
have
to involve your life
and change
your behavior
you
are
at
the
first
stage
of
reading
a
poem
and
you
may
react
against
what
is
meaningful
in
it
poetry
is
in
essence
a
form
of
story writing
nothing happens
things just go
in a circle
until
we
die
school
is
not education
its
something else
culturally
induced
moronacy?
one thing
the internet is opening
up
to
me
is how badly i was taught at school
what
though
the
greedy
fry
die
and
die
the greedy
fry
democracy
is
basically
a
working class
movement
the whole framework
of
assumptions
like enlightenment
and transmission
in
zen
are mistaken
there
are
real
and
mythical
elements
to
any poem
basically
women
are
involuted
and
men are not
you'd
be
amazed
at
what
women
think
compared to
what they
admit
they think
or
say they think
;o)
brains
out”
male
and
female
its
literally
true
though
women
seem to fuck
their brains
in
unrequited
sexual
tension
is
like
a
compressed
spring
that
keeps
one
moving
forward
the
health
message
boards
an
insane
welter
of
schizophrenics
theres
a
lot
of strength
there
just using
it
to
crush
me
is
not
a good
use
of
resources
these
poems
are
an
alignment
of
words
to
match
something
in
deep
semantic
space
or
infinity
if
you will
“selfless service”
theres
those
that
do
it
and
those
that
use
it
generally
they
are
not
the
same
person
being
a
poet
is
ok
but
the
pay
is
zero
a
lot
of
work
for
nothing
if
i
was
asked
to
characterise
me
i
would
say
i
was
a
slow
developer
i
came
backwards
from
infinity
what
is
death
what
is
life
what
is
the
moon?
its
gifted
of
god
but
god
itself
is
nonsense
do
you
understand
the
difficulty?
GOD
i
turned
my
computer
off
everything
sounded
empty
the stove
tray
rattled
the
woodheater
crackled
everything
was
empty
a
cyclone
came
in
swept
everything
up
and
dumped
it
out
the
door
one
long
line
of
words
is
this
a
poem
no
or
yes?
criticizing
a
poem
should
be
by
way
of
writing
a
poem
in
reply
otherwise
you
have
the ridiculous
situation
of
an
unskilled
person
criticizing
a skilled
persons
work
don't
give
me
too
much
spare
time
it
gets
filled
with
writing
i don't
actually
have
any
spare
time
it
still
gets
filled
with
writing
you
cannot
shatter
the
female
she
is
impregnable
she
will
die
before
she
shatters
when
you
read
a
poem
theres
something
said
and
something
not
said
you
have
to
read
very
carefully
to
understand
what
is
not
said.
the
problem
with
not
said
is
that
you
think
it
says
something
it
doesn't
i
think
at
this
rate
i
can
write
700
poems
a
year!
its
a bit
frightening
maybe
i'll
die
first
those who
praise
selfless service
are
the
biggest
hypocrites
who
have
never
done
any
but
only
leeched
off
it
if
you
have
ever
done
any
you
know
it
only
brings
you
into
contact
with
the
worlds
biggest
arseholes
and
therefore
you
can't
praise
it
theres
two
species
of
human
male
and
female